Breaking through…where to begin on that topic? Been thinking about that a lot today.

It’s a subject that never really goes away down here in LA. Everyone’s always looking to break through into *something*. I am no different, I’m afraid.

I need a win, guys. I’m stating it for the world to see.

I’ve been thinking a lot about how to get that win, and I really think the fact of the matter, what it all boils down to, the creamy cream that’s sitting on top of the milk…is that I don’t know anybody. I don’t know anyone who’s working on the shows or projects that I’d be good on, and therefore none of those people can help me. I need to change that.

For the most part, rather than trying to meet those people, I’ve kept to myself, working from home, and trying to clack away in solitude and write the perfect piece. I talked the other day with someone who writes with Pixar, and asked them how they got started. “A summer intern,” they told me. It was an ah-ha moment. An embarrassing ah-ha moment because I’ve been told and read that many many times before, and it never really sank in. I’m afraid it still hasn’t sunk in. That this epiphany will be lost by other rationalizations.

Yes, the only thing that can really sell you is good work, whether you’re a writer or an actor. But, that’s kind of a given, right guys?

I know, first hand, from every other venture in my life that I’ve only gone as far as those in positions above me could *see* that I was a reliable and worthwhile person. With their own eyes. Which means it happened in person.

So…I’m not really sure how I’m going to change all that. I have a tiny handful of people who know enough to at least give me advice. I’m going to listen to them first. Beyond that, I’m just going to use my own common sense and get my ass out of the house. See where that takes me.

And write. Maybe that will help the writing. This week was rough on that front…I need a reason to write. I haven’t had one this past week; a depressing admission, but true. That’s a major thing that needs fixing, shaking the negativity that comes with wondering if the breakthrough will ever come.

Well, it’s definitely not coming if I’m sitting at home and not meeting anyone, right? Right?!! Yup. Need to fix that 🙂