Doing a quick one tonight. Casted with Josh tonight. We watched a movie from the 70s called Network and it was...bonkersssss. And in a surprising, good way that kind of swept me away. Mostly. It didn't quite fire on all cylinders, but holy shit is it a relevant movie...

I touched the abyss this weekend. I realize that now...and it actually made me feel better. I know that's weird to say, but this is how... The abyss, it would seem for me, is working, working and working and not making progress. It's being stuck. Not moving forward....

I feel...much better today. Still anxious. Still unsure. But the depression is better. Thank lord. I realized something, though, yesterday in the depths of that depression: quitting is an option. I don't have to do anything. I get to decide. And man...that somehow...