I don’t always do that well…choose my battles.
I didn’t make a major misstep or do anything with lasting consequences today…just a misstep in terms of my own psyche. I get sucked in, guys. I hate it. Sucked into other people’s bullshit because I have a low tolerance for being treated like an idiot…that’s pride, guys. Purely and simply. Ego. It’s not an aspect of myself that I particularly enjoy or admire. It’s not without it’s usefullness…the desire to directly and immediately confront someone who is being a dick is 100% tied to that ability to pick and choose who are positive influences in my life, as well as to keep myself from being trampled on or abused…
…but it also gets me into trouble when I don’t choose my battles. Today was not a battle worth fighting. It’s even a misnomer to use the word “battle,” because it implies something can be won or lost. Nobody ever wins a battle, guys. The only victory is being able to LEAVE the battlefield. That’s it. So…maybe “battle” actually the perfect word. Only ever enter into a battle you know you can walk away from.
Well, I *can’t* walk away from this one. At least not yet. I’m stuck with this particular person as long as I choose to do what I’m doing. And no…this isn’t some cryptic way to talk about someone close to me 😛 Nothing like that. Work-related stuff.
It derailed the end of what otherwise had been an extremely productive and awesome day. I got an hour behind by the time I was about half way through, but I stopped at 9pm as I’d scheduled to get my writing hour done (outlining on Starstuff 2), and then I was back and rocking it to finish the last bit of my editing…and I got derailed.
The contempt is almost entirely for myself, you guys. As usual. Ugh.
As it stands, I have 3:30 of editing work to make up tomorrow. Blech. Not a fan. I’ll do it first thing. Then I get to go see Joshy-poo, and THEN I’m going to come home and eat lunch and watch the Blue Jays take on the stupid Rangers. Rival Rangers to my green and gold. Toronto being my defacto desired AL champs since the A’s are done and done.
Sooo…I bought these new headphones, and I’m listening to them right now full blast…and they are freaking awwwwsssoommmmeee. A branch of Harmon Kardon (which is a high-end german pro audio manufacturer) called AKG. They’re these tiny little things with some dope acoustics. They feel like they’re made from cardboard (read: flimsy), BUT…I’m pretty easy on my headphones. They just hang next to my computer…so I have faith I can make them last. The speakers are clearly high quality…so I just have to keep the exterior in decent shape. I’ve needed a new pair for…I think 4 years? Super happy. Found some cool new music this morning.
I’m also well into season 5 of Voyager now. I don’t know if I mentioned that. Season 5 is…pretty solid. Some duds here and there…but today were some legit cool episodes. Like the one where we call back to this planet that had a silvery goo that became sentient when Voyager touched down on it…and they copied the whole ship and crew, and then FORGOT that they were duplicates and this silvery goo stuff and set out to the stars for earth, thinking they were the real Voyager. Well, they don’t realize until too late that they can’t last out there…and then they all melt and the episode is over. They don’t get saved. I mean, that’s ballsy. It was cooler than it sounds 😛
That’s all for tonight, y’all. Thanks for listening!