Today was rough. I didn’t get much done, I’m afraid, which has suddenly been a theme for the past week. Sigh…it’s just putting off the inevitable.
I finished reading Icarus. Man…I hope it reads differently for other people. And I don’t mean that in that it’s a bad script. I don’t. It may not be a particularly BRILLIANT script, but it’s not bad. No, what I mean, is that I hope it reads as interesting and surprising…because at this point, I know each of these scenes so fucking well in and out that I literally can’t tell. I’ve lost all objectivity. It’s a mush. I’m finding it impossible to read it as a reader and that is quite frustrating.
But…I think that means it’s time to move on. Get a few polish notes taken care of and move on.
I did work. Lots of apartment stuff. Hopefully we have a unit rented. Will find out tomorrow. Rent is all done, hallelujah. Nobody yelled at me today, that was good. Took care of the pups, helped the Ho with some acting stuff…I just wish I’d gotten more work done. It wasn’t for lack of trying. I wasted maybe two hours all day that I could have been working. Still bugs me.
It hasn’t been a good week, guys, I’m going to be honest. Not very good at all. BUT…it also wasn’t a terrible week 😛 Nothing bad really happened, it was just “off,” you know? Not productive. I’ve been writing these blogs long enough now to know they happen every so often.
I guess what I’m feeling right now is that FINISHING…at least when it comes to when you’re still so early in your career…really means coming to terms with your own limitations. The ability to bring closure to a project when you know that it’s not quite as wonderful as you wanted it to be. There’s some disappointment that comes with that. And it’s completely subjective. I am feeling that about my own work. Hopefully others will find it more than just that, more than just the shortcomings of an inexperienced writer.
See…but there is a light on the other side of all this, guys, which is that I can only get better with practice. I can only write my second book after finishing my first. It’s all a process, and that’s what matters. Love what I do in the moment, and just keep writing. Leave the judgements till after the work is done and I’ve already moved onto the next project. THAT’S the point.
And so move on I shall. Almost. Couple days. Then…back to Starstuff.