I want to put this podcast to rest. I really do. It’s dragged on for so much longer than I ever anticipated, and I feel like every time I think I’m getting close to putting it aside, something else sucks me back in, or I get busy and can’t put in the time…and I think I realize that I’m holding onto it somehow. I don’t know how or why, but I am.
And now I’m ready to be done with it. I’m going to sketch out my day tomorrow accordingly.
And, by the way, I don’t mean “done” like I’m over it or have any negative feelings about it whatsoever, because I genuinely don’t 😛 Quite the opposite. I’m just ready to have it be READY to be out in the public, where I can let it go and it belongs to anyone who listens to it and not me any more. I’m ready to turn my creative energies into other projects. That’s all.
I’m going to bed pretty early tonight. I’m just wiped out. It’s been an intense few days, it’s been an intense few months. The Ho and I were talking about that together, about how we reached a crisis moment together in terms of where we want to be focusing our time and energies, and we’ve come away from that with a decision. It’s always such a stressful and taxing process when that happens, but there is relief on the other side once a decision is made and stuck to. And exhaustion. I feel like I’m in that stage right now. Just tired. Ready to move onto the next chapter, but tired.
And the next chapter for us is staying where we are. For me it’s to continue doing the work that I’m enjoying, and to rewrite my first novel and write my second. It’s a next chapter that’s frankly overwhelming…but I have to keep plugging away at it. Find my consistency every day. Every day.
Do less more often, Ira. That’s the ticket to salvation. Do less more often, every day.
So wish me luck tomorrow, the day I will “finish” this podcast. That means cutting together this “teaser” and then fixing the RSS feed. Wish me luck.