Whew!
Work week is done. And so is September. Man, what a month September always seems to be. Right? Jesus.
I really got out of whack this month. My routine was messed, and I really fell of the wagon. The writing wagon. In terms of work, that was fine, but the Ho and I did have a lot of “extra” expenses this month that really threw a stop sign up at the savings. We basically treaded water on that, and if you’re like “man, that’s a weird thing to bring up”…well, it IS connected with the whole “how was my month?” check-in, because the REASON why I’m working so much is to SAVE. So, when that doesn’t happen, I do tend to get a bit depressed. Or downcast. Depressed is probably too strong of a term 😛
Yeah…September bit me this year. And I’m pretty sure it did last year as well. And the year before that. I’m seeing a pattern….
I guess I’m just feeling down from this month because it more often than not this month felt like I’m *never* going to finish this novel…it’s just so much work and and it takes so much time…especially when one is working three other jobs, like I am. But even that feels like an excuse because the problem isn’t really those three other jobs…it’s me. I didn’t have the discipline and the focus this month. Plain and simple.
To be…two and a half years into this “process” and to have a month like this month and realize how much work is still left on this novel…well, it’s tough. Tough to swallow. I need a spoon full of sugar to make that medicine go down.
Despite all that moodiness surrounding this month as a whole…today was successful at least on one front: I got a ton of work done today. Not writing work, but paid work. I hit my goal that I’d set for myself, and had a decently paced day to get there. Was able to shut it down at 7pm, and that’s always a huge win. If I’m working five days a week now, instead of pulling the 14 hour days I used to…well, shutting it down by 7 or 8 is a MUST…as is having two days off on the weekend, which is what I’m about to enjoy.
Going to take it eeaasssyyyyy this weekend, with perhaps the exception tomorrow of doing some house cleaning. I need the rest, man. Charge up for next week. Get back to my normal writing routine.
See, what happened today is that I tried to write in the afternoon instead of the morning. Big mistake. Maybe that would work after re-programming my brain, but I’m currently set for productivity time first thing in the morning, and trying out this other method was a mistake. Big time. Won’t make it again.
And with that in mind, it’s time for sleeps.
Good night y’all. September: you were a hectic month, and I’ll miss you all the same. Here’s to a more consistent October!
Tonight’s artwork is by Ron Miller.