Had a day off today…I earned it this week, you guys.
I’m listening to music right now…which I haven’t done in what seems like a long time. New music, anyway. Man…I think it’s been a friggin month or more since I’ve gone hunting for new music. Well, I found a bunch. Spotify was on fire tonight.
Every year, I put together a playlist of “pop” music which I mostly cull from the Viral Hits playlist that rotates through new music every week. I seem to find music that way in fits and starts…weeks at a time with nothing, and then five or six songs that catch my ear. Tonight was one of those days where there was just a ton that I liked. I usually over-add to my playlists, and then I pare them down as time goes by and I fall in love with most of the songs and out of love with a few of them.
I watched the ending of Bridge to Terabithia tonight, which was not a good movie…but…there was some truth to the story. One of the characters passes away -the death itself is super super poorly handled- but some of the reactions afterwards have some truth to them. Mostly in that when someone we love dies tragically, there’s an instant reaction to blame ourselves for the tragedy.
There was also a brother-sister relationship that at times, especially in the end, really reminded me of being an older brother. The fights, all the not-knowing of how to communicate feelings, feeling left out, feeling included…I love my brothers. So much. I remember being that age, vividly. My brothers were wonderful to me. They really were. Always down to use their imaginations, or build stuff, or watch stuff, or listen to stuff, or read books back and forth, or run around. I couldn’t have asked for better brothers to have.
I’ve been thinking a lot tonight about what’s going to happen with me this year, what path I’m going to choose…I don’t have an answer to that yet. I’m going to talk to people, weigh my options, get advice, and really think about who I want to be, where I want to be, and what I want to be doing.
Something this book I’ve been reading, which is echoed in another book I read last year (well, almost finished reading), is how important it is to visualize what you want. The more specifically, the better. Mental Representations are absolutely crucial to success and change…which is not to say the universe then just provides what it is you visualize. No, that shit only comes from hard, hard work…but that mental representation is a huge component, perhaps the most important component, in making a goal come to fruition; whether you’re a nfl quarterback or an aspiring writer.
Gawdam the music is badass tonight. And these airpods are the BIZNESS. They’re *loud*, too, which I appreciate. I don’t have to turn shit up all that way.
Coops is passed the fuck out on my chair right now, belly up. That’ll be tonight’s photo.
Tomorrow is a long, long day of ‘Flix work. Wish me luck 😉
“You’re right.”
“You’re damn right I’m right. I can’t remember a time I was goddamn wrong.”
“Man, thanks little bug.”
“Hey man, that’s what I’m here for.”
from “iSpy” by Kyle feat. Lil Yachty