Dis boy is tiiiirrreeedddd.
BUT…
I got all my shiz done, yo. Twas a long, long day, but I got it all done. YAAASSSS.
Everything works out, you know? If you set yourself up for success, everything works out. I knew today was going to be kind of all over the place, but I had some firm deadlines in place that helped me stay on track and motivated. There is NOTHING like a deadline, a REAL deadline to get work done. Seriously.
And I’m going to apply that shit to Starstuff. It’s done this month. Full stop. If it kills me. I don’t care if I collapse afterwards, it WILL be done. Ready to send off to an editor.
I’m at a juncture in my life right now, and I have to paths that lie before me: one is structured, familiar, and secure…at least as any path in life can be, which is to say, you never know what’s going to happen 😛 The other path is self-structured, unfamiliar, and much more emotional.
I don’t know which I’m going to choose, to be honest with you. I really have a lot of thinking to do about who I want to be, what I want to do with my life. I’m going to seek out some advice from others. I got to talk to my supervisor today for the ‘Flix, which is where all this is coming from tonight. He was the one who really called out that I’m at a cross-roads, and he was absolutely right. I’m at a decision point in my life about what direction I want to go in.
Seems like this shit happens every few years. Jesus. I wonder if that’s normal, or if I have some sort of problem, some sort of loop that I’m stuck in. I don’t *think* so, given that I’ve never shyed away from making actual changes in my life, changes that I hope were all well-considered. I think they were fairly well-considered, too, given that each one of them is a choice that I’d make again.
I don’t mean to be enigmatic about the specifics of these two choices…they’re just rather personal, and feel a bit raw and on-the-surface right now, so I’d much rather talk specifics once I’ve decided exactly which direction I’m heading in. I hope that sounds fair.
Anywho, I think that’s all I got tonight. Tomorrow morning we’re heading downtown for a massive, massive women’s march. I think it’s going to be MASSIVE. They say 90,000…I’m betting it’s going to be more than that. The Ho thinks it’s going to be smaller than that. We’ll see.
More tomorrow 😉