I played golf today.
Once upon a time, I was trying to figure out what my handicap is, and so I’ve kept my golf cards from when I’ve played (you need 12 of them, I think)…which means I know EXACTLY the last time that I went and played golf. It was 4/17/2017. Which means it’s allllmost a year since I played.
JESUS WHAT TOOK ME SO LONG?
It’s so beautiful on the course. Good lord. It was warm today, so I stayed in the shade as much as possible…but then the sun was going down and it started to get cooler, and there were these air currents of cold air mixed in with the warm air, and the trees were shedding leaves like golden-brown rain, and the birds were chirping and it was…wonderful.
Oh! And I also have Star Wars. Turns out that all my efforts yesterday were in vain, I couldn’t get any of it to work…and then it just so happened that I stumbled upon a thread whereby someone was saying that you could burn this file format I had in-hand straight onto a disc using a program THAT I HAD. And so I did it…and voila…it worked.
I HAVE STAR WARS IN HD IN ITS ORIGINAL FORM.
I’m watching that shit tomorrow. Watch me.
I also thought a lot today about writing, and about my book. What I realized is that I’m a goal-oriented person. I am at my happiest and most calm and centered when I’m able to set a goal and then achieve it in the time I wanted to. I…have not done that for quite a long time when it comes to my writing. Part of that has been a learning curve in how long it takes me to do things, certainly…but the other part of that I’m not sure. All I know is that I’ve broken down my system, and the trust that I have in myself that when I say I’m going to do something and get it done, that I actually will follow through with that. At least with my WRITING.
So…that’s my task. I need to reclaim my system of deciding what I’m going to do and when it’s going to be done, and get myself back into the feedback loop of actually accomplishing that stuff.
See, then, when I spend a day out on the golf course, I feel like I’ve earned the ability to relax.
That’s enough thinking for one evening. More tomorrow, including a retrospective on 2017.
Night.
Artwork today is from Grant Morrison and Mukesh Singh.