I had a much better day today. I slept for freaking 12 hours last night, and I woke up feeling a bit more rested. Enough for me to get a full day’s worth of narrations done, so, yay!
Because I woke up so late, though, I didn’t have time for much else. I got maybe 30 minutes of writing in, and then all the sudden, it was almost time for us to leave to go and see our friends Aaron and Marie for dinner. It was at this place called Eat Drink Americano, which was pretty good! The arts district in DTLA is getting so freaking cool. And expensive, I bet…but some really cool spaces are being developed down there and some legit nice places to live.
Coops is giving the Ho kisses right now. He’s such a sweet freaking dog. He really is. So gentle. Really, really all wants us to be together at all times. He was so full of energy when we got home, that we played fetch for like 10 solid minutes in the bedroom with squeaky santa. Then, he pouted in his kennel in the bedroom while I finished the laundry and watched the Warriors game on the NBA app. He wanted nighttime routine to begin, but we weren’t ready yet. He’s so funny.
But, yeah…I feel better. Physically. I can’t really say that I feel better mentally yet. I still feel frozen up about writing…and I was on the walk with the pups tonight listening to This American Life about this kid who had basically been brainwashed and how he recovered from that…and it made me realize that I *do* need help with this anxiety I’m feeling right now. I’ve put off calling this therapist because I keep thinking that I can probably dig my way out of this on my own; and here’s the thing: I probably can. I’ve done it before…but this time, I don’t think I want to slog through that process on my own. I’d rather get some help figuring it out.
So, that’s happening tomorrow. First thing. You heard it here first, kids. I’m practicing what I preach, and I’m calling this doctor.
In the meantime, I’m going to plug away and try and build up my energy and my strength. I just feel…very depleted lately. Weak. Not energized. One might call it depression. I do have my good days, like today, where I’m able to get a decent amount done and feel good about it, but it’s not as consistent as I usually feel. So, yeah. It’s going to be a process of restoring myself both through rest, and through making sure I do enough to push myself forward.
It’s time for bed now. I’ll catch all y’all tomorrow. I get to podcast with Josh. We’re finishing up the Animated Series…and then next week…THE MOVIES. Huzzah 🙂
Tonight’s artwork is uncredited, unfortunately. It’s quite good.