This was…an odd week.
I don’t feel like I was a rock star this week. Not like I felt the previous two. This week was a lot less of the “I can fucking do this” and a lot more of the “jfc, am I ever going to crack this story. Which is to say, it was a dramatic week of a lot of ups and downs. And there were definitely ups. In fact, I would say the week had far more ups than it did the downs.
I figured out some MAJOR stuff with my book, but the biggest win of all was actually getting excited for the first time about this particular story. Like, I know now what story I’m trying to tell, and I really, truly didn’t before this week. For the first time since I sat down to write it, I think this second book has a chance to be even better than the first. Up to this point, I was pretty sure it wasn’t going to be. It has a chance. I just need to keep pushing forward.
Maybe this week was a let-down from two insane weeks of writing. Maybe this is normal for me. I don’t know yet. I’m only on book two of my career. I hope it isn’t 😛
It’s definitely stressful, all the handwringing and the avoidance of sitting down to do work that’s scary and hard…but I suppose, at the end of the day, if I come to know those feelings as just part of my process, I’m okay with that. I’m okay with it, because the end of the process leads to a story that I’m proud of, like it did for Starstuff, and that’s magical enough for me. I can handle the tough weeks when they lead to something better.
I suppose that’s “grit.” Gotta have some if you want to make a pearl. Little oyster metaphor right there.
Oh! And speaking of the sea, we just went and saw The Meg, which was…pretty freaking terrible, to be honest. Super broad, took itself waaaayyyy too seriously, and looked a little cheap at the end of the day. BUT…it wasn’t boring. An that’s something at least.
That reminds me of how behind I am on writing reviews for the movies I’ve seen. I think I have 25 or 26 of them to write out. Jesus. I’ll fix that, I promise.
Time for the sleeps. Looking forward to a weekend of light work, and then diving back into the WORDS next week. Two more weeks, and this book should be just about finished. Crazy. And then the rewriting and the polishing begins. Aaaaahhhh.
Night 🙂