Ugh.
Today was a failure. The anxiety won. Don’t get me wrong, there were many reasons for the anxiety…but I still let it win insofar as I know that I’m capable of better.
One never *defeats* anxiety. It’s is only ever managed to be the best of one’s ability. And ability can be grown, practiced, and improved. Just like any skill or set of tools, it gets sharper with practice and education.
I was not at my best.
I must let that go. I must turn the page and tomorrow, do better.
So, that’s what I’m going to do. No more about it tonight.
It was a busy day. We had workers in our apartment early–thanks to the Ho for handling that like a champ–and then we did AC maintenance for the whole building. The workers in our unit were done around 2.
The A’s won. We pounded the Yankees. Byyeeee. That’s two out of three for the series, and means we split the season series. We can *definitely* take them in a wildcard matchup. Not saying we will, that would be foolhardy. Anything can happen in one game. I’m just saying that we *can*.
Walked pups. Went to the grocery store. Did some mailing list stuff; apparently, to run a proper list, you need an email from a custom domain, Ie- NOT gmail. So, I went and created that, except it didn’t want to use forwarding and I didn’t want to use the web mail on my site. I want to use Gmail. That meant setting up a business account 🙄 so, I did that.
Baby steps. Baby steps.
Getting sleepy. Time to hit the hay.
Tomorrow will be a better day. Good night.