Y’all…Deep Space Nine is SUCH A GOOD SHOW.
I got to hang out with Josh tonight, and we watched some more of that show…we’re still in the first season, but something Josh was asking about reminded me of a later episode and so we jumped ahead…and dayaaammm. That show gets SO GOOD. It starts out a bit rough. Not bad. Not at all. I just mean…rough. You know, around the edges. It’s not quite all there yet. Which totally makes sense, because they’re *just* figuring shit out, you know?
So good.
We also started recording conversations that Josh has aptly named “The Lost Tapes.” I think the full title will probably be “Josh and Ira: The Lost Tapes” or something like that, but just us talking about random dope shit. Like, today we talked about blogging, about growing old, this truly awesome poem…it was the kind of stuff we usually talk about, to be honest–life and creativity–but I dig the idea of recording it all. They’re moments in time.
Like, I’m sure I’m going to look back on so much from this period in my life and think, maaannn…I remember when I was that young. I really thought I had it figured out back then. And you know what? I look FORWARD to that day. Because I *will* know a lot more. Life has a way of handing out wisdom piecemeal, you know? It doesn’t give it to you all at once, and never when you want it…but always when you NEED it. If you’re listening. I try to listen. I don’t always succeed…but I really do try.
Work today was really good…up until I reached a point where I think I got either just burned out and needed to take a break…or scared. I think it might be the latter. It’s the first step in my rewriting process where I’m putting down actual FIXES. And that’s terrifying because I don’t want to do it and have happen what’s happened every time I’ve tried to fix this story before: it doesn’t work, or it just doesn’t feel right.
But, you know what? I have to trust the process. I need to not worry about getting the fixes all perfectly right at this stage, because this is not the end stage! I’m not there yet in the process. I need to trust that I WILL get there if I just put my head down, do the work, and let the process do what it’s designed to do. One. Step. At. A. Time.
Just keep writing.
Trust the process.
Breathe.
Tomorrow: I tackle.
Tonight: I sleep.
Good night. I hope you had a nice day, too 🙂