I might be off count again on the blog numbers. I’m not quite sure. At the very least, I know that I’ve been counting correctly for the past three months. Before that? Not sure. I just saw with a new sidebar feature that gives me post counts by category that I might be off 😛
I sent a hard email out today (or, rather it will go out in the morning) to my email list. In it, I finally gave an update about the continued, interminable delay on releasing Escape From Red Tower. I explained that it’s still stuck, still broken, and that I’m taking a break from it to begin another project.
That book…it’s an open wound, man. I’ve spent so much time, so much thought, running in circles on that thing and it’s still. Not. Done. Ugh. I hate thinking about it. I hope it doesn’t drag me down on my next project.
Sigh.
It’s not exactly the tone this rather good day deserves, thinking such dark thoughts, but those are what are floating through my head right now. Fear. Anxiety. I suppose that’s natural for my first day back?
Just keep writing.
Trust the process.
And it was a good day today. I realized something rather profound today; that the feeling of anxiety and being unsettled that I get quite often these days is actually a sign that I’m doing something right. At least when it comes to my writing. It’s a good sign! Not a bad one. It means I’m doing something right. It means I should press forward, keep going. Not step back. Not retreat back into “safe.”
I can’t get Peak out of my head, and how the researcher talks about that feeling of being on the edge, teetering and ready to fall…how that’s where growth happens.
It’s still incredibly unpleasant, that feeling. I don’t like it. But, I am starting to recognize that I must embrace it, and that I must push through it. It means that I’m doing something right, not wrong.
Cooper has just been a big old snug today. He’s curled up next to me right now, and we had a couple long snuggle sessions during the day, the most recent of which was on the chaise lounge, and he was literally falling asleep as I petted him. We took them on a nice, full, long walk today. That’s really what did it. He’s so happy. So tired. So soft.
Coco, too. She’s just a loaf.
I wrote a scene today. 600 words. I need to go, actually, and fill into my tracker. I’ve gotten away from that in the past two weeks. Not going to fly. I don’t want to lose that habit.
I also read through reviews for an hour on The Forever War. Going to do the same thing tomorrow.
Oh! And we got our artwork for Film School today from David! It looks sooooo freaaakking good. It’s the best work he’s ever done for us, I think. Thank you, good sir.
More tomorrow. Night!