I was lazzzzyyyy today.
Kicked off with waking up late. GDit I was tired. Coops and I went on a nice morning walk. It was all grey this morning, which suited us fine. Nice and cool.
Ate breakfast and finished making notes for this week’s Film School podcast. Didn’t get the chance to move ahead on our recording schedule this week due to unforeseen complications, but at least we’re still on time 🙂
It’s such a good episode this week. We’re really in the groove on the ‘cast. The rhythm is starting to feel super natural again, and you can hear it just in the way that the discussion flows between us. No wasted space. No forced conversation. It’s all good shit. So proud of that show. And the movie The Apartment was particularly fun to watch together.
Then went to therapy, which was a ggrreeaaattt session today. We talked about why big feelings feel so threatening to me, which ultimately comes down to being afraid of losing control. My therapist said something that really stuck with me today, in so many paraphrased words: emotions are by their very nature temporary. It is impossible to get lost in an emotion forever. They come and go. Most often, depression isn’t being lost in that emotion of sadness or despair…quite the opposite; it’s the detachment from those big feelings. It can be one of the healthiest things we can do to just feel the big feelings when they come, rather than to try and control them, or push the aside.
It’s scary…but it feels like the truth.
Came home. Watched some baseball until bear got home, then I did a little podcasting editing, and took a looooong long nap together. Woke up, did a little more podcast editing, we walked the pups together, and then we played Phase 10 together for the first time. She’s played it at Jared’s. It was my first time.
And THEN…we watched the first episode of the new season of Dark which is easily one of my favorite shows on TV currently. We’ve forgotten so much from the first season, we both decided to go back and watch that first 😂 So, it’s going to take us a while. But, I’m excited.
And that was my day.
NIGHT! 🤓