I feel like I’m going through a period with my blog where I don’t have a lot to say.
It’s not exactly fatigue, I don’t think. I’m not fatigued with the blog per se…
I don’t know what it is. I just know I’ve been so tired lately when I’m sitting here in bed ready to write about my day and my thoughts and my emotions…I haven’t really wanted to spend that much more time writing them all out.
Maybe it’s partly that I’m going to therapy each week, and talking about those things instead?
I don’t know.
But, things are good right now. They are. I definitely have my doubts and my anxiety, and my second book isn’t written yet…but fuck, I am working on it. Truly. And I’m approaching it differently. FINALLY.
Like, I just did my 10 minutes of writing before doing this entry–and holy crap I did NOT want to do those 10 minutes tonight for whatever reason–and I can feel the difference, you guys. I’m brainstorming right now; trouble shooting the opening act of the story. And it’s soooo much less fuzzy right now. It’s so much less unclear what are the good ideas and what are the ideas that won’t work.
Same feeling with my writing sessions lately, where I’m actually putting out new words. The difference is palpable: I can finally tell when something is working. The anxiety around that, which clouds it all up so much, is lifting.
I still haven’t figured everything out yet. I’m only two weeks in with my writing mentor/editor…but I can feel the difference, and that gives me some fucking hope.
Coco was so snuggly today. I know I’ve been talking about her a lot lately–I even talked about her today in therapy–but she’s pressed up against me so tight and warm, I can’t help but notice her there and that makes me want to mention her in these entries. She was especially snuggly this morning. She buried her head up on my shoulder and just wanted to be pet for like 20 minutes before she got all wiggly and excited for breakfast. Coops, too, has been especially cuddly and sweet lately. We went on a walk together tonight and the both of them were just so calm and happy. Good pups.
A’s won. Fuck the Angels.
I got the podcast all ready to go for next week.
Took an epic nap.
It was a really good Saturday.