My success has always run a direct route right through my own level of happiness and contentment.
I realized that at therapy today. What I fear about stepping away from Netflix is not that I won’t or can’t succeed. I already know I can. I’ve done it before. Several times, actually. What I fear is that I won’t be happy…and because of that, I will fail.
That’s what happened in 2017 and 2018. I failed because I was so unhappy. I mean, there were reasons I was unhappy, it wasn’t just arbitrary, of course…but every time I’ve succeeded at something, it’s because I was able to find a way to enjoy what I was doing.
I’m not exactly sure how that is significant, but it feels like it is.
I’m more tired from the conference than I thought I’d be 😂 Took it decently easy today, but I might try to take it more easy tomorrow. We’ll see. I have the podcast to edit down. We’re in the home stretch of the year! Already! That’s crazy. Seems like just yesterday that it was summer and hot and the entire back half of the year was stretched out on the horizon.
Coops got his hair cut today. He’s so soft and clean and sleek. We’ve been feeding him a little bit of extra food for the past few months because I thought he looked a little thin. Not underweight or unhealthy, but just like he could stand to have a little more meat on his bones. And then we didn’t get him cut for so long, it was hard to tell how big he was getting. Well…he’s still nice and sleek. I do think he gained a little bit of weight, but I think it’s just the right amount. He looks great 🙂
Coco still being just an absolute snug. She’s pressed up against Liz right now. Being a fluff. She took an epic nap with me today. Pressed so hard right up against me. Ugh. Fucking love that dog. And doc says she’s all healthy. Everything came back normal. So, the poop explosion issues have probably just been food allergies. New food has been working okay so far.
That’s the news that’s fit to report. Definitely still processing this conference.
We’ll see what I take away from it. I’m going to be patient with that in the meantime.
Night 🙂