Writing a goodbye scene tonight.

Been building up to it for a while, but not even realizing it. Not until I got here. But it’s absolutely the scene this entire story has been building up to till now. One character is asking another to come with them…but they can’t. They won’t. So they have to be left behind. And that’s hard.

Lots of work to do, now, to justify this scene. Because it’s not right now. But it will be when I’m done.

The scene gets to stay.

Listening to some perfect music right now for it. I might have to visit customizing my playlists for different types of scenes to match the mood and the energy. It really helped tonight.

I usually just write with the droning sounds of the focus tracks on Brain.FM…but specific music tailored to exciting scenes, outdoor scenes, suspenseful scenes, etc. might be dope. Might be really helpful in terms of the prose. The words themselves seem to be better with the right music. I slip into the flow a bit better, find some rhythm, maybe a little poetry (though, I have to be careful with that—I prefer simple and concise. If I’m getting too much poetry, I’m usually overdoing it).

Anywho: Daigo Hanada was the special sauce tonight. And tonight’s not even a full-fledged writing day!

I am happy to report that I have a writing habit. Finally. It took me several SEVERAL tries to get here, but I have a habit of writing every day now. It’s automatic. I look FORWARD to it. It’s a goddamn miracle.

One step at a time.

I can also say that I’m getting better about obsessing over my story when I’m not writing. Or, rather, I should say better about NOT obsessing about the story while I’m not writing. I try not to think about it at all, actually. It’s making me less anxious, and surprise surprise…I’m still just as productive when actually writing. The thinking in-between does get me any actual story gains. It just stresses me the fuck out.

It’s getting better.

Finally.

Night 🙂