Change is always scary. At first. And sometimes second.
But change has always been good to me. I don’t know how I forget that, but I do. And it’s true, it’s always been good. Without fail. Even deciding to write full-time in 2017 that failed in every respect save that I HAD to do it, or it would have felt like true failure: giving up. And I learned some things about myself that I didn’t know, the kind of things that will serve me for the rest of my life.
My work situation is changing. Soon. Perhaps not all that much; might actually be an incredibly soft landing…but in the change there’s opportunity, and it’s that, really that always sends my head spinning.
It might be the right time to try something new. Not completely new, more of a step forward, turning further down the path with my workplace than I’ve gone before…or a step in the other direction. I don’t know. Each of the three options, including the soft landing, all have tremendous upside. And of course, just like any good crisis, the option with the highest upside also has the greatest fear of failure attached to it.
I don’t know. I really don’t. I need to think about it. BUT…with the option to try and level up at work, I had a good idea. A genuinely good idea. And…
That was exciting.
Night. Wish me sleep
Original artwork tonight is by Muscadinewine on Tumblr