Today was a little rough. This whole week has been a little rough.
Thankfully…without going into the details, really, of what’s going on since it’s something I want to keep private and off the internet…thankfully it’s GOOD stuff that’s happening right now. But, it is stressful. And it’s something I’ve never done before. And it involves working with new people and figuring out how new things work and all that stuff that’s simultaneously exciting and terrifying and frustrating and inspiring.
In a word: exhausting.
And that’s what I’ve felt this week. Exhausted. I know that will pass. I’m going to find a groove with this new thing, and I won’t be consumed by it. But, right now I am.
It was another busy day of work, running around, and more work. No writing. I’ve been too wound up to write, which is…frustrating. I’m going to try and fix that tomorrow morning. It’s already a little late to be going to bed, and not enough sleep is what derailed me this morning, but I’m going to try.
I’m also practicing self care for myself this week in terms of realizing that I work this way; upset the apple cart just a little bit, and I struggle to do the tasks beyond the absolute bare minimum of necessity, or that require any real sort of ENERGY…like writing. I’m giving myself a pass. It’s okay. It’s normal.
But…I’d love to write tomorrow morning. It’s been going so well. I’m turning a corner with my writing. I really am. ANOTHER corner…there have been many of them…but ya. Another one. Turned.
That’s all for tonight. I feel like I actually put into the most articulate words tonight how I’m feeling, where I’ve been very quick and vague over the past couple weeks, and I’m happy I was able to do that without explicitly spelling out everything. Good things. Great things. Greatness can often be more nerve-wracking than failure.
Night, guys. More tomorrow 🙂