Feeling that “finishing” bliss today. Powerful stuff. I love it.
I wrapped up a particularly challenging project at work today, or at least the grunt part of that work. Still some stuff to clean up here and there, but it’s majorly done. And right on time. Everything worked to plan.
I *love* that feeling.
So, taking a break tonight from the introspection just to bask in that feeling. It’s a mixture of exhaustion and accomplishment and…satisfaction, because everything is just where it should be, all wrapped up and tidy. I honestly never fancied myself to be OCD or a control freak, you guys, until I started blogging/going to therapy. I wonder if that’s just because I was oblivious to it before, or because it’s a trait that’s grown over time. Maybe both? I don’t know…I think my money’s actually on me just being oblivious to it before now.
And the introspection of the last couple nights is just that: plumbing the depths of my psyche to figure out why I am the way I am. I’m doing fine. I promise. The depression right now isn’t particularly strong, honestly…I feel quite level-headed. But, the fear is strong right now. The freeze is strong. And I want to change that, which is why I’m taking the blog entries as an opportunity to talk about it with myself.
Solid day. Solid few days, actually, on the work front. Very, very much looking forward to some time off. Getting all next week off, and hopefully most of tomorrow, too, plus the actual holidays of Christmas Eve and Day.
Got to watch the Warriors play their first game of the new season. They got manhandled by the Nets. Just looked really, really disjointed. Which…was to be expected, honestly. It’s a brand-new team. Not even Draymond was on the floor (out with what is hopefully very minor foot soreness). Everyone else in that starting lineup was new playing with Steph. So…we were clunky.
Wiseman looked impressive, though. Rough, definitely not polished, but explosive. He’s massive. And he can move. And shoot. A very exciting player. And…we might be bad this year. But, we also might be pretty good. It depends on how well we can mesh together, honestly. Tonight was rough, but that was expected. It’s all about how we look mid-season. And health. If Curry get’s injured, we might as well tank.
Crossroads for the franchise. For sure. Gotta figure out a way to stay competitive, though, because Curry, Draymond and Klay are all still in their primes. Can’t waste that.
We’ll see what happens.
Night!