It was a cozy day today.
We didn’t do much. It was wet and rainy outside. Cold, too. This was a coooold little rain storm that we got. So, we stayed inside. Watched the rest of Lupin together. Hung with the pups. I did some financial accounting-type work and I think I’ve got us squared away I hope to track our spending over the next twelve months. Make sure we’re staying within our means and not losing savings. That’s huge. Took me quite a bit longer than I’d hoped…but we DID IT. Had a nice little meeting about it, too.
Changing behavior is hard. It takes persistence, especially in the face of failure. It’s not like it’s ever a “switch.” It can feel like that for a little while, but there will always be times where the routine is interrupted, or the willpower fades, and we revert back to the way we used to do things. But…change is possible. Necessary, even. It takes a looooot of work, but it does happen.
I think that applies to many areas of my life. My writing. Our finances. My exercising. My emotional health. All of it. It takes long-term concerted effort. But it CAN BE DONE.
I was tired today. Long week. This political stuff going on with our country very much weighs on me. I lost some rhythm this week because of it, even though what was happening was good; a relief, even.
Days where I don’t do much are hard for me. But, I’m working on that. I’m sitting here in bed not trying to push away the uncomfortableness, the guilt for not having been more productive. Part of getting where I want to go, of changing, is letting go of that guilt. It only holds me back.
Harder to do than to say, certainly…but here we are.
I’m working on it 😉