I have some goals this year.
That feels really, really nice. I’m already accomplishing a couple of them…but this is going to be a good year. I can just feel it. I’m in the right headspace, and it’s been a while since I felt that. More bold. Less hesitant. Less unsure.
And listen…that happens. The uncertainty, and the self-doubt, and the dark times. They will come again for me, most certainly. Change is hard. Our psyches push back really, really hard against it. But…change is also inevitable. Change is necessary. My dark days aren’t all entirely behind me, for sure, but they are starting to recede, and I’m grateful for that, but also grateful for the hardship itself. It’s taught me a lot about myself and what my issues are, and that makes me stronger, to be honest. If knowledge is power, self-knowledge is the most powerful force of all.
I guess that’s what I’m thinking about tonight. I’m thinking about where I’ve come from and where I want to go, and most importantly where I am right now.
Today was a good day. I didn’t do much, as expected. I needed the day off. I need a recharge this weekend going into this last week of this majorly huge project (and then right into the next one—albeit a smaller project—right away). Got my hair cut. Watched the Warriors destroy the Pistons. Had some good food with Liz. Worked on our project together a little bit in the morning. Took a nap.
It was a good day.
Oh! And I did my workout. Saved it right to the very end, but I did it, and pretty easily, too.
I’m getting stronger. Inside and out.
Night.