Feeling disconnected tonight and much of today from…a lot. My writing, mostly, but man…I feel like my busy work schedule and the stress of doing new things has caught up to me a bit.
It’s definitely part of a cycle. I get a high off working so hard, and whenever I begin a new adventure. And then I get a high off the grind, the mini wins each day of being productive. I’d say I feel up while working hard about 80% of the time. Maybe 90%. But, inevitably, I get tired, and the focus slips. The energy wanes. And for that 10% I feel burned out, tired, and suffer from insecurity and self-doubt.
The other side, of that, however, is determination. There’s a clarity that comes sometimes with being down. It makes me think about how much I really do want the thing I’m trying to achieve.
And I do.
Right now, quite simply, I’m just not getting up early enough. It’s killing me. So…tomorrow, I’m getting up early enough. It’s that simple.
Wish me luck.