My job right now is getting up on time. That’s pretty much it, to be honest. Everything else is a plus.
And, goddamnit if it isn’t WORKING. I was up again at 7am today. Tweaked my gd neck sleeping somehow. I really think it’s stress. Not bad stress, stress because GOOD things are happening and I’m now someone who lives with anxiety. Thanks for THAT 20s.
Man, I remember when I first had real anxiety. It was my last year of theater school. Really did a number on me. I couldn’t get my heart rate to slow down. Ever. Sleeping was hard. It was horrible.
Not in that situation right now. Thank lord. Heart rate is fine. But, obviously I’m dealing with unconscious anxiety, hence the muscles freaking out and the waking up early. Did I mention the past two mornings I’ve been so focused on getting up on time, I’ve actually woken up early? Uuuuuggghhh.
But…here’s the thing: I know it will work. If I can just do this for two weeks, I’ll have reset my bio clock. I’ll get used to it. I’ll have a burst of energy in the mornings, and get shit DONE. It’ll be the best. So…I weather the waking up early and the stress and I just focus on my job:
Wake.
Up.
On.
Time.
See ya.