I’ve realized something about me and my writing, and I’ve realized that it’s totally natural, and I don’t need to try and not be this way at all, it’s just part of the process…
I get grumpy about my writing when I’ve written something that I know doesn’t work, and wasn’t how it felt like it was going to go in the outline. I know I still have to work to do on it to fix it, so that’s grump-inducing in and of itself. And to double whammy the situation, it also means I can’t move on and hit my page goals because it’s a disaster for me when I do that. Everything I would write from then on would be based on something that doesn’t work, and I’d have to toss it all out anyway and start again…so I’m doubly grumpy because I’m not hitting my goals.
And that’s all okay, it’s all normal, and I’ll be back on cloud nine when I get back on track and figure out something that works.
Believe it or not, it actually feels really great to have realized that. It’s not something I need to run away from. It doesn’t have to turn into resistance, even though it does, sometimes. I need to listen to my gut when it’s telling me that something’s not right, and I need to dig in and fix that shit. It’s worth the time and the effort.
Worked today. Podcasted today. I’m freaking wiped out.
Night night.