There were a few tasks stressing me out, and I got at least one of them done.
I need my rest. I do. But, damn, it stresses me out sometimes getting back to work. That limbo state between rest and when I should get back to working is really really hard for me. I do my best. It’s usually not bad. And it wasn’t today, or the past few days…but I can feel it in the background. There’s a panic. What if I never get started again? What if I delay too long and don’t finish on time? What if I go back to the thing I used to enjoy, and I don’t enjoy it any more? What if I’m miserable? Too tired? What if I’m not good at it?
Doing the work actually helped.
See…the key for me, I think, is just making sure I don’t overload my plate too often. I also really struggle with that. But, when I’m at my best, I have the rest I need, I have my freak outs when it’s time to go back to work…AND I still get everything done that I need to get done.
That’s my intention for next year, in a nutshell. I want to be better at not overloading my plate. I need to be better. I will be better.
1899 is a really, really fun show. We’re having a blast watching it. From the creators of Dark. A lot of the same thrills.
Night night.