What a milestone. 3,333 days ago, I started writing this blog. I haven’t gone and looked yet at 1,111 or 2,222…but I can already tell you this: I was ACHING to be where I am right now back then.
I was floundering with my creativity. Money was uncertain. We were managing an apartment building that was more like an abusive relationship than it was a job. A LOT has changed.
I keep thinking about 2022. It was a year of A LOT. Perhaps not as much as 2020, but it in many ways it was more than that year. We moved into our house. I had several breakthroughs in terms of figuring out how to write books. And I had so much client work—the busiest year I’ve ever had—so much to do on the house, milestone of a birthday…it’s one of the busiest years I can remember ever having.
In 2023, I definitely am making strides to change that. To narrow stuff down a bit, take more time for myself. The writing is the thing. That’s what I want to commit to, and it takes the VAST majority of my time and energy.
I have written three novels. I think 1,111 me and 2,222 would have jumped for joy to hear that. Like, probably jumped for joy and sobbed with relief.
So, how do I feel about it now that I’m here. It’s…everything I dreamed of. I feel so proud, so grateful, so empowered. And I know deep in my bones how much it’s not a destination. I haven’t arrived anywhere. Truly. There are so many dragons left to slay—like, making enough money from my writing to drop the 9-5, for example—…and even then, the journey never stops. I’m never going to stop working on myself.
Thank god for therapy. Whew. Thank god.
But, I do feel so proud and so accomplished to have done what I’ve done. It’s taken me almost ten years to get here. The entire span of this blog. But, I am finally starting to feel like a professional writer. A writer who delivers. I get my shit done, and at a certain level of quality that I’m always trying to improve upon. I remember feeling so far away from that…
So, 3,333 feels amazing. Incredible. The best I’ve felt in a very, very long time.
Night night.