We spent Valentine’s day with the Kings, sharing some joy. It was perfect.
Otherwise…I worked. Had a panic/sadness attack come around 3pm, but it subsided. My thought of the day on grief is that it’s uncontrollable. It just comes. My brain has absolutely no control over it, I just have to ride the wave. Somehow, that’s actually a little bit comforting. It means I’m not doing anything wrong. It is what it is no matter what I do.
I love you so much, Bear. You are my greatest joy. This is our…18th Valentine’s day together! Holy SHIT. 2005 to 2023. We actually first started dating shortly AFTER Valentine’s Day of 2004, so we just missed that one. But, man…18. Our VDays can now vote. Woohoo!
Love you all. Night night.