Certainly don’t have my rhythm back. Sigh. Today was rough on the creative front. No steam. I tried. I did. I was up on time and butt in seat, even through the whole session…but nothing really came to me. I gave up easily, really. It’s an energy thing. A focus. A determination. I lack it so much, it seems. Not as much as I have in the past, but still…
I could write so much faster. I could be so much more confident. Focused. Poised. But, I’m not. Not yet. I’m a work in progress, and that’s the best I can say it. I’m working on it.
Joy continues to be the cutest fucking thing in the world. She loves sleeping up on the bed with us, bless her little heart. She’s curled up tight right next to me as I write this entry, diaper wrapped around her butt because she’s still in heat and she might bleed all over the place by accident. She hasn’t yet. Makes us doubt ever so slightly that she even is in heat, but I think it’s normal. I’ve read the amount of bleeding/discharge is entirely variable, particularly when they’re still so young. And the doc said she’s in heat, so…
Tired. Still exhausted from traveling, for sure. Hoping tomorrow is better on the energy and focus front. I really am so close to having this outline nailed down. So. Close.
Night night.