What’s the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make?
An interesting question for WordPress to feed me on Thanksgiving, but let’s do it: putting down Coco. For a moment, I really didn’t think I could do it. I remember saying that as we walked to the room where they were going to take her to us to do it, ‘I don’t know if I can do this.’ But…I could. I did. I held her as she went. I’m glad I did, as dark as that moment was and will always be. She calmed just before it happened. I don’t know if that means she knew it was me there, but she did calm. And then she went. Just with the sedative, she went. She’d tried to go earlier, but they’d resuscitated her, brought her back. It felt like she was gone as soon as she went back under. Maybe the second injection was necessary, the one to officially stop her heart—it was certainly prudent—but I really do think she was gone before that even came, she was that ready to go. What could I do except oblige her, you know? Her body just couldn’t keep going anymore. It was too painful. So, you know, it wasn’t a hard decision in terms of what I needed to do, or which way to go. It was just the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. She was my special girl. She always will be.
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I’m thankful this year for my loved ones, and for health. At the end of the day, it’s the only thing in life to wish for. Nothing else matters. And everyone was healthy today and happy. A truly wonderful day.
Started by getting some cleaning done. I did a bit in the front yard to finish that off. The remaining plastic bits and blowing/raking all the leaves. And then I got set up for painting the dining room, finally. Got a first coat done on that. Will get a second tomorrow…and then maybe wait till Saturday to do the ceiling. We’ll see. Not sure if it will dry enough to put painters tape on it by tomorrow evening. Maybe. I think it needs more like 24 hours to fully cure before it can take painters tape.
Lin came in, and then pretty quickly we were off to the Kings’ to have dinner there. We brought a bottle of Burgundy with us and it was delicious. I gave it four stars on my little app, lol. Dinner was amazing. Everyone was happy and the food was great. Liz and Tilde bought tickets to go see Stray Kids, which is Tilde’s favorite band right now. So excited for them. I hung out a lot with Wolfie and he told me jokes and we talked about his Pokémon game he’s playing. Mira was happy and chatty, too. It was great.
Came home and took care of the pups. They’d been alone for, like, six or seven hours by that point! But no accidents. Just wiggly butts and nose kisses. Went on a walk, then watched the last bit of GBBO…and now sleep. A very, very full day, and one that I am eternally grateful for. This was an amazing Thanksgiving.
Night night.