Am I a morning person or a night person?
Naturally, I’ve always been a night person. Never so bad as staying up till 3 in the morning or having a hard time sleeping, but I’ve always been most creative at night, liked staying up, and REALLY loved sleeping in. But here’s the thing: as an adult, the daytime gets filled with lots of other worries and concerns, so much so that even in the evening, I’m usually pretty wiped out and not feeling energized or creative. This especially became true when I was working the apartment managing job. I had a really, really hard time getting my writing done during the day or in the evenings.
So…I forced myself to become a morning person. FORCED myself. It’s taken me literally years, but my most reliable, quiet, cozy little bubble of creative time is early in the morning. I get up at 6:15, butt in my chair writing by 6:45 at the latest (usually starting around 6:30) which gives me two full hours of writing before the rest of the world starts. Becoming a morning person has saved my writing. It’s turned me into a professional. It’s what I can fall back on, rely on.
Wild, right? Goddamn it was hard to make that a habit, but I’m glad I did, because what I learned was that as much as I am naturally a night time person, I am much more an anxiety person, and my anxiety builds up throughout the day if I haven’t got done what I wanted to get done…so the sooner I get that shit done, the better. I can’t leave it till later. My brain just doesn’t work like that.
Crazy what you learn about yourself as you get older.
———
A zero day today writing-wise…sigh…but I kinda knew it was coming. It was just too busy, too hectic of a weekend. Long weekend. But, I’m back at it tomorrow. Getting my ass up whether I want to or not. Guarantee I won’t want to, but I have to. Reset the rhythm. Get this outline really rolling.
Work was silent today. Everyone probably taking an extra day. I expect the push to the end of the year to come soon, though. I’m ready for it. Let’s gooooo.
Night night.