by Ira | Feb 16, 2023 | Challenge, Journal
A so-so day. I didn’t have a full-on panic/grief-attack today. It did come, but it was more subdued. And I got incredibly tired in the afternoon and had to take a nap. We had a little bit of a rough night. Didn’t get great sleep. Woke up several times because of some...
by Ira | Feb 15, 2023 | Challenge, Journal
Had a solid day today. The most solid day I’ve had…well, I guess not that long, but it FEELS like so much longer. No writing this morning. Sigh. But, Netflix work was great. Helped Liz with a really good audition. We had lunch together almost like normal. It’s…getting...
by Ira | Feb 14, 2023 | Challenge, Journal
We spent Valentine’s day with the Kings, sharing some joy. It was perfect. Otherwise…I worked. Had a panic/sadness attack come around 3pm, but it subsided. My thought of the day on grief is that it’s uncontrollable. It just comes. My brain has absolutely no control...
by Ira | Feb 13, 2023 | Challenge, Journal
Time is a slippery thing. It’s giving me mind whiplash today. A week ago was my last “normal” morning with Coco. She’d had trouble sleeping the night before. I was worried. But, we woke up that morning and she was happy to see me. A stretch in bed, a little of her...
by Ira | Feb 12, 2023 | Challenge, Journal
I think I realized today that I’m afraid of my grief. And it doesn’t take me long to figure out what, exactly, I’m afraid of: I’m afraid that my grief will consume my life. I’m afraid that I’ll get stuck, and everything I’ve worked for will slip away. My brother...
