Loopy tonight, y’all. Ground down. Zombie-fried cripsy.
It was a looooooong day today of work. I have Japanese live action comedies and Star Trek Enterprise swirling around in my head, because that was about all I saw today beyond the occasional glimpse outside my new office window.
I burned through 9 episodes of Enterprise while working today…NINE. I think that’s a record. Granted, I’m not really paying attention to them except for the background noise, but still…I usually break it up with music more so than I did today. I’m just not a fan of that show. I realized it today. I don’t think it’s good, I don’t think its exciting, and I don’t think anything it did “new” contributed positively to the Trek universe. I remember feeling very much the same way when I watched it back in 2009 (I think, maybe 2010?), but this rewatch confirms it.
Now…that is not to say it’s not entertaining. Because it still is. And, I have genuinely fond memories of watching it for the first time with my good friend Ernie…I’ll *always* have fond memories of watching it, in fact; this year of working and watching Trek will always be looked back upon with nostalgia, I think…BUT, that doesn’t mean I think the show is any good. Because it isn’t. The characters are broad, inconsistent, the storylines are often ripped off from other Trek episodes, and moreover the show never really feels like it knows who it is and what the rules are of the universe its set in, this pre-Federation wild west. It *should* hav been so good…and it isn’t.
There are a few episodes here and there that are fun; today had a couple of them in the middle to the end of Season 3. Season 3 is also WAY more interesting than the first two seasons…and entire season spent in this one area of unexplored space; that’s fun. But, if we’re talking the calibre of a long-term multi-episode story arc…DS9 beats Enterprise like the Majors squash Tee-Ball…they’re not even in the same league.
Writing was not a full hour today, I was distractable, BUT I still got 4 pages written of Act 4. That’s a win. And a win for the whole day since I was clearly feeling fatigued.
Man…I feel like all I’ve written about for the last week, two weeks has been work. Every day. Clearly that’s where my head has been lately. It’s a habit, too…if I unload here on these pages and get my mind set for what’s going down the next day, or the next few days, I find I actually accomplish what I want to accomplish.
Perhaps that’s a key moving forward, moving into next year: getting my mind set on other priorities, like the writing. I clearly am getting the writing done right now AND the working…perhaps I can actually shift my priorities as well, my obsessions. We’ll see how that goes…it’s a thought.
My work is important to me. Making money is important to me. Clearly. That is a part of my psyche. It’s also clearly not the end-all-be-all since my persona also insists that I be creative…otherwise I’d just drop everything and grab whatever well-paying job I could get my hands on. But, the working and the making money are a part of me, there is no question about it. And, I think that’s okay. I can be that person, AND be the person who writes every day. I’m doing that right now. And WHEN I get my writing out there into the world, then I can make those two parts of myself into one and the same. I have a feeling I’ll feel very much the same during the day-to-day, actually, when that happens…but overall, I think, my happiest self (when it comes to working and creating) because it will just be simpler. I won’t be splitting my attention.
We’ll see, guys. I’m working on it.