I wrote 5,897 words today. I wanted to write more like 9,000…but the beginning of my writing day was a struggle. I rallied, oh yes, praise be to the writing gods…but I still end up feeling like I fell short.
I definitely have to work on that. I wrote a lot of words today. I advanced my story with good words, and good scenes. I’m also 11,000 words past my original word count goal…so really I should have been done with this thing last week when I wanted to be done with it.
I’m teetering tonight, guys, right on that edge of “fuck yeah! I’m putting in the work!” and “jeeeezusss chriiiissstttt when is this going to eeennnnndddd?” I wanted to be done with this book back in August. AUGUST. It’s currently the end of November, just in case you were hibernating for the past three months and don’t know where you are. That’s really, really annoying. REALLY. ANNOYING.
But, and here goes the see-saw…it’s also fine. It is what it is, and those in the know would say. Meaning: there’s nothing I can do about what it is before and up to this point right now. But I CAN do something about it from this point moving forward, and that’s what I should focus on, not re-forming my past into a shape more pleasing to my memory. That’s an exercise in futility.
I’ll end up coming down on this second side eventually…but not tonight. I do feel frustrated.
One thing I feel very grateful for was my ability to rally today. I was getting NOTHING done in the morning today, and it was really striking a blow to my self confidence. I’d been working well for about a week going into Thanksgiving, and it’s just so predictable for those days off to have broken my stride. But, I came together in the late morning and into the afternoon. I took a nap, and believe it or not, it actually helped me today instead of hurt me.
OMG. Coco just nuzzled up to me on the bed. Like, full out pressed her face into me, gave a deep sigh, and then closed her eyes and fell asleep. What have I done to deserve this perfect pup? What? I don’t know.
Tomorrow, I attack the book again. It’s an odd day; I’ll be writing over the hill in Hollywood, but I’m determined to use that to my advantage and find somewhere nice and cushy, somewhere I can plop my butt down for three or four solid hours and get this fucking book finished into a rough state.
Parting words: the Warriors lost tonight to the Sacramento Kings. The KINGS. I…don’t think they’ve lost to the Kings for like four years. Granted, we did have both Curry and Durant out of the whole game due to injury, but still…we should have beat the fucking KINGS. Good lord. This secondary unit is on notice. They have to have the legs to play a full game, man. And they did not do that shit tonight. Yikes.
Night 🙂
Tonight is some awesome fan art of Uhura. Love it 🙂