I had an interesting day today.
I struggle to work from home. I’m not used to it now. I realized acutely today that I depend on going to work to get me into the working mindset. Which is, I guess, just a representation of how my work-at-home life has evolved over the past year and a half or so.
In a word: challenging.
That’s going to change. Starting tomorrow. I’m going to set myself a schedule tomorrow, and I’m going to stick with it.
Schedules also used to be my friend, but they haven’t been lately, which is why I’ve been so gunshy about them. But, here’s the thing…I am the one making them my enemy. No one else. I do have control over that.
My day started with me completely missing my half-hour appointment with a fellow writer to talk about me perhaps hiring them to help me finish Escape From Red Tower. That was…mortifying. I spiraled for a little bit after that, but I didn’t let it get too bad. The lingering effects slowed down around three hours later. Not too bad.
I got some work done.
Not a ton, but some. And I thought a lot about EfRT. I thought about how fun it has been to write at times, and I thought about finding that with that book. That’s my goal this time around: purely to search and keep searching until I find the joy, the passion, and the connection.
I can feel it close to me. I can feel the optimism building. I can feel a breakthrough coming.
I just want to write happy again. That’s all that was missing. This whole time.
I’m going to go set myself a schedule for my day tomorrow. I hope you have a good night, and a good day tomorrow, too 😉