It’s been a while since I had a writing day like today. Over two years, maybe? Something like that. I think almost three years.
Today was a day where I wrote and I was…in the flow. Like, fully in the flow. I was just telling the story, and I knew it worked, and I was excited to be there watching what was happening and it was just…just like stepping into a river and floating. And I haven’t felt like that since I was writing my first book.
Today was the day, the first day I think I’ve really felt that writing this second book. And it wasn’t the particular scene, I don’t think. It was just…I’ve been feeling better for a while now, but I haven’t felt BACK, really. I touched that today. I was back.
I hope it lasts.
Here’s the thing: I do actually have confidence now to know that it will. Eventually. I don’t know how long it will take me to get there, and it might not happen with this book…but I will get there.
Oh, it’s such a magical, magical feeling, you guys. To know what I’m writing is RIGHT as I’m writing it. It’s so clear, that state. I have a feel for everything in that moment of pure flow, and I really do mean FLOW, because there’s a direction to it, a pace. I can feel it like the reader feels it. I know the how it’s going to read. It’s not just pure creation, it’s more of a feeling of the finished state of things. And that’s my sweet spot. It’s just WORKING.
And I was able to get there twice today. Almost 2,000 words.
I’m looking forward to many, many more of writing sessions just like that. That you BABY JESUS I finally found my way back here.
This book is getting fucking finished!