Another solid day today.
I was able to just go through my routine today, which always helps me. I never knew how OCD I was, guys, until I started this blog and started therapy. I really depend on my patterns of behavior and actions SO MUCH to deal with my anxieties.
I don’t know if that’s a bad or a good thing; I think it’s probably neither. It simply is what it is.
Wrote my one page. I’m going up to two pages next week. Then three, four, etc. The writing right now is still halted and jerky. I don’t know these people yet. Still getting used to them, the world they live in, and the story that’s about to wrap them all up.
BUT…the difference this time is that all actually feels normal. Genuinely. Like, I’m writing scenes right now that I know will need to be rewritten, but it’s not freaking me out too much. It just feels like part of the process.
And with the daily goals, I’m stressing less about when I finish, actually. It’s focusing more on just finishing TODAY, which is a relief.
It’s just a relief full-stop that setting goals is working again for me. I’ve not been able to do that for a LONG time now, particularly with my writing. And I’m doing it again. Which is how I usually accomplish things. It was so frustrating and honestly scary to feel like my ability to set a goal and then work step by step to achieve it was broken. That’s a foundation of my entire life.
But it’s back now. I can feel it. Thank baby Jesus.
Netflix work was great today, too. I’m ahead of schedule. Have a couple new projects on the horizon that I’m excited about.
Also got work done on TG1T. Gonna be able to cross that off my list sometime soon. AND…
And…today I finished reading my book live on Facebook/YouTube. The entire thing, cover to cover. I read it all. So freaking awesome.
Good day today. Solid.
Night!