Check in…

How do I feel? How am I doing?

I’m…good. This week was up and down, to be sure. Last week, I remember, was dope. Really, really good. On all fronts. This week had some bumps. Honestly, nothing major. It just wasn’t as focused.

It’s really the writing that has me down on this week; I didn’t get all my sessions in. I fell off the wagon a bit. I let life crowd it out. Which, you know, happens. It does. And I really just want to make note of how much I judge whether a week is “good” or “bad” based on how much or little or good or bad I felt like my writing was. I let that define SO MUCH.

And, maybe that’s just me. Maybe that’s not a bad thing. But…maybe it is. Maybe it’s getting stuck too much on one thing, you know? At the very least it feels like getting stuck in the past.

I’ve had this sports concept pass through my brain a lot this week: great athletes have a short memory. When they mess up, they forget about it very quickly, and they move on. They keep shooting, or pitching, or running, or whatever it is, and they keep doing that until they’re back at a high level.

I…do not have a short memory. Or, it feels like I don’t.

I want to.

So…here it is from tonight: writing was tough this week. But it doesn’t have to be tomorrow or next week. So, gonna focus on that.

Bam.

And do some letting go. This WAS a good week…and I AM doing good. Life is good.

Night.