I’m cookin this week. I’m getting stuff done, and feeling very happy with myself about it.
I had stuff to go do early this morning, and I knew if I didn’t get my writing done BEFORE I went to go do that stuff, I wouldn’t do my writing. So…
…I got up early and did my writing. Even though I had a little trouble falling asleep last night (nothing too bad, but later than normal). And it was a good session, too.
And then I came home and got my work done. Helped bear with an audition. Watched the Warriors win.
A good day. And a good day that easily could have been a hard day because of the extra curriculars earlier.
Liz asked me what’s the difference. Why am I doing things that have been so hard for me in the recent past? And the answer is…just a lot of long, hard work on myself. I’ve realized just how afraid I was of certain things I wasn’t even aware or wouldn’t admit I was scared of. And now, moving past just admitting that, I’m just starting to do the things I am afraid of.
I still feel the unsettled feeling. It’s still scary. But I’ve been able to keep that kind of fenced into its own area inside my head and push forward. More than push; flourish. Do it, and feel great about it. Confident. Calm.
It’s a big shift a very long time in the making, and I feel very lucky to be here.
How was your day?