So, I want to learn how to cook a steak in an iron skillet. We don’t have a grill. That’s fine. We so rarely eat grill-able stuff, at least in the quantities necessary for a grill. So…a skillet. It’s enough for Liz and I to make a dinner to share. That’s what I want to learn how to do.
I also want to figure out a really, really excellent chocolate chip cookie recipe. Tollhouse is all fine and good, but I want something excellent. The kind of chocolate chip cookie recipe that has people being like…these are the best chocolate chip cookies I think I’ve ever had, how did you make these?
In both cases, I have some recipes to follow. Tonight, I went and got the ingredients. All except for rosemary, which is out freaking everywhere. Makes sense—it was Thanksgiving last week. Hoping I can find some tomorrow. If not, I’ll just do it with Thyme and fresh garlic. Really hoping I can find some rosemary, though. I don’t think I’ll make the cookies tomorrow; I think just doing the steak will be stress enough for me. But, the cookies on Thursday, maybe. Or the weekend. I have all the stuff, now.
It’s very stressful for me to do new things. It always has been, I just have gotten better at actually recognizing it. At least, it’s stressful doing them on my own. If I do it with someone, it’s easier. And the funny thing is that I always end up enjoying myself. But…it is stressful. It takes a lot of effort and energy. I want to try and get better at that over the next year. Try more new things. Recognize that, yes, it will be stressful, but no, I am not going to hurt myself and yes, I can still do those things and it be stressful. There’s nothing wrong with me. I don’t need to fix that. I can just let it be. Recognize it will be there, and do what I want to do, anyway.
It’s time for bed. Night night.